God's Little Plan

Through out my life I have met alot of interesting people. I have had the pleasure in meeting some great people who I feel I have learned true lessons from. The greatest lesson I believe I have learned however, came from myself. So here is my story.
Around 13 yrs ago I met a woman who I couldn't quite understand why she had came into my life. At first I thought it was to make my life miserable. I felt that she somehow would be a constant reminder of what I had let go of in my life. I thought for some reason or another she was out to get me! Even though I didn't know this young woman, I truly felt she was going to make my life a living hell.
After about a year of meeting this woman, ironically I felt the need to get to know her better. Even though I didn't want to admit to it, I felt some sort of connection with her. It was almost as if God was trying to tell me......Get to know her Jeanine, she's not bad nor out to get you.
So that's what I did. I tried my best to find out who she "really" was. What kind of person she was and see if she was somehow brought into my life for "good" reasons. Then, on a sad note, my daughter was in Children's Hospital for a week, and this lady was kind enough to take a week off work to stay with me. For 5 days we were together. I got to know her and she got to know me. I finally realized that this lady was kind, caring, and even funny. And even though my daughter was terribly sick, I felt it was God's way of bringing us closer together. After that, we would call each other on the phone. Sometimes we would meet for lunch or go shopping together. The more I got to know her, the more I liked her!
As time passed we always didn't see eye to eye. Sometimes we would really not see eye to eye and not talk for a while. Oddly enough, we would patch things up and forgive one another.
I was really starting to understand what God was trying to tell me. The picture seemed to get clearer and clearer as the years would pass.
I was creating a friendship with this woman and couldn't even "see" it happening. We were doing more together and I started to confide in her on my deepest darkest secrets. My dreams and goals were shared with her. We were more than just friends by this point, she truly had become my best friend!!
I can honestly say that she is one of the most amazing women I will ever meet! Her friendship is sincere, she has a heart of Gold, she would give you her last buck to you, she's compassionate, and so very honest!
This young woman has become a big part of my life. She is the first one I will call on the phone crying my eyes out about something "wrong" in my life. She's also the first one I'll call when I have something exciting to share!
She's the only "true" friend that knows EVERYTHING about me and has never ever judged me. She loves me for who I am and in return I love her for who she truly is!
You see, this woman isn't just my very dear friend, she is also my daughter's Step Mom!
I can honestly, truly say that God was telling me to forgive my daughter's dad for all the hurt and pain I went through with him in order to receive something more sacred, something more valuable, something I would cherish all the day's of my life!
And that is exactly what I have. My daughter has grown up with both parents and step parents loving her and she has never had to grow up with all the dysfunctional crap that goes on in most split families.
I forgave so that I could receive! What a beautiful, beautiful thing God had planned!
I Love You Tina!

"J"